np: gothika - hair cut millennium

tall, dark and handsome

i've been thinking of making a video posting for this blog. my english is horribly rusty though, i haven't spoken it in a while, but i'll do my best... but now i thought i'd ask you guys if you're even interested in seeing me on video.
and if you are, what would you like me to talk about? aks me questions, suggest topics, anything. i'm awful at figuring out something to say.
or would you like a tour of my room, whatever might cross your mind.

eyebags for the win

i don't get much comments on this blog which i find a bit sad. i'd love you guys to comment me more! don't be so shy~

now that that's over with, onto other topics!
as i might've mentioned already, i'm going to see dir en grey this summer. what i haven't mentioned is that i got the VIP upgrade for my ticket which means i get earlier entrance to the club and a meet&greet with the band. how excited am i? oh i'm going crazy... yeah.

guess nothing else is new. spam me with comments and tell me your ideas for that video.
i'll go and do my hair now.



-rulla

np: ugly kid joe - cats in the cradle

"i sit here, my legs crossed, the ground is warm but the wind,
when it occasionally blows softly, is cold.

i sit here and my expensive leather jacket keeps me warm,
makes me look good.
when the wind doesn't mess with my hair and i don't shiver.

when i don't have to frown because the wind made me lose the page i was reading.

i look ok actually, thinking about it now, but it feels rather stupid since
i'm reading words telling me how everything is a waste of time and life.
everything we own. everything we are.
i've read this book a few times already.

ah, well. i smile to all my nonsense, i smile and breathe out smoke,
i smile and feel like my life is after all worth living.

i have too much.
i know too much.

but in the end, this is all worth it. it feels like it now.

i sit here, reading, drinking my morning coffee.
in all silence,
thinking about how i could describe the thoughts and feelings i have,
but when i get back home and start writing,
i've forgotten all those deep thoughts and, yeah,
i can never tell you how it actually feels.

to feel like i'm living something beautiful."

-rulla

np: dir en grey - red soil (unplugged)

think this blog needs yet another color theme change since my hair has been evolving like crazy.  how lame of me, matching my blog with my hair...

cut it short on the other side first...

and back to black after getting bored with caramel!

i think it looks quite nice. my history with black hair is long, i dye my hair black, start hating it, bleach it, back to black... after all this i think it's the best color for me. suits my face.

the sun's been shining bright and warm and i've been really happy! just chilling outdoors in the woods and walking around town listening to cheerful music (how out of character...) but that's just how summer affects me. i should take some photos of the places i usually go to just sit around doing nothing. they're all very visually pleasing.
though i'm really not a person who likes to be alone. i hate being alone to be honest.
but i try keeping myself entertained by drawing or writing when i don't have company.

oh, yeah, talking about writing, check out my other blog where i post one of my story projects (it's in finnish but i'm sure you don't mind.) JAD / DLL

i've spent a lot of time outdoors!

just realized i haven't even mentioned that dir en grey is coming to finland again and i have the tickets to see them. i'm super excited about that, the last time was 4 years ago... way too long if you ask me.
i kind of melt my brain yesterday checking out their recent setlists. they've been playing mazohyst of decadence. you should've seen me freak out when i noticed that. "SHIIIIIT THIS IS UNREAL!" i love that song. it's hypnotic. and sick. psychotic. i would've never expected them to play that oldie again... i hope they'll play it here too!

aaand i can't wait for their new single, different sense. i'm sure it'll be mind blowing. i have huge expectations on that one. after all it's dir en grey, they've never let me down.
..unlike girugamesh, imho their new songs are crap compared to the old ones.




i should write more often. there are so many things i could write about, including my new kids i haven't introduced to you yet... maybe a dollfie related post coming up sometime!

ofelie germanotta, arrived in december.

in the end i'd like to advertise a bit:
i, like everyone else, made a formspring some time ago. you can find it here:
ASK ME SOMETHING!
keep me entertained.

with this i say
g'bye!


-rulla