np: ayabie - az

i know i said i'd update more often...
last week i was staying at tomppa's place, just chilling, watching movies and COOKING all week. i should make those chocolate muffins again sometime, they were gooooood.

and then last weekend me, daiki and tomppa took a trip to hamina, my old hometown... it was nice, though i had already forgotten what the people are like there. hmmm. of course i saw some friends (like niina and kemis!) i had missed a lot, i'm really happy about that... haha, seriously, we still had a great time the whole weekend! also, we had a photoshoot on saturday, the pictures still need to be photoshopped but as soon as that is done i'll show some of them to you!

this week, once again i'm not home, i'm hanging around at keitsu's place! this is a bit ridiculous, i have a nice place myself yet i'm never home hahahhaha. we'll see what the weekend has to offer...

anyway. i've dyed my hair AGAIN. it's not finished yet, but i'm not telling what it's gonna be like~! but this is how it looks like now~

some people just shouldn't smile... ahhaha

almost forgot to show this! i finally did it!

so i guess that's about it... nothing else for now~
-rulla 

np: buck tick - hyper love

PHAHAHAHHA OOOPS i totally forgot i even had a blog. SORRY!
well, the video... i've been busy doing nothing and now that i started splitting my tongue (using the fishing line method) i can't even speak properly. but after it's complete i'm absolutely going to show it off ON VIDEO.

other than that, i've been chilling out with all my new friends (and some old ones, kemis came to visit me last weekend), going to concerts (gackt & dir en grey holy hell if i may say so), partying hard... i even checked out the annyeong!party, mostly because many of my friends were there too. it's been great but i need to come back down to earth and get myself a job now.

i cut my hair too. it was way long and in a really bad condition so styling it was nearly impossible. now it's much shorter but i like it better this way.
OH! and you may congratulate me for finally gathering the courage i needed to try contact lenses! now i can't live without them, they really do make a huge difference. i want more. grey, black, brown, purple, turquoise... ALL THE COLORS! hahaha~

my look nowadays, not that different...

i could update more often, share some pictures of my everyday life and all that.
cause right now this blog is kind of... really boring. i even know it myself.
and now since my life has gotten so much more interesting i'd actually have something to share!
hahahha

at least i need to make this look prettier or something ahhahahaha.

we'll see about that.
-rulla

np: buck tick - embryo

 i'm really terribly sorry for not writing lately... i've been busy since i moved to helsinki almost a week ago and all that. but now i'm finally here, i can't even believe it. ever since i was a kid i've dreamed of living here and now i made it happen. how proud of myself am i?

i really wanted sushi while unpacking my things at my new place...
a charming picnic, no?

about that video i promised, i think i'll make a better one (not happy anymore with the one i made much earlier) soon. i had problems uploading it and then i just kind of forgot all about it... sorry about that. but surely you can wait a bit longer?

dressed up to celebrate my new life... new wig too!

have i ever mentioned how much i _hate_ posting pictures here, they just won't go where i want them and keep fucking up the text and all that... ah well.

everything here's black&white, i love it!

we were out today, me and naru, walking around and taking pictures before we went to the movies. i've seen the final harry potter 2 times now... and cried way too hard both times. not that i'm a crazy fan or anything but it's an important part of my childhood.
i'm not much of a model but naru is great with the camera so even i can look decent. ahahahha~

chewing on accessories is a bad habit, kids.

"how's my hair?"

g'night dudes & dudettes, i'm feeling sleepy!
-rulla

np: gothika - hair cut millennium

tall, dark and handsome

i've been thinking of making a video posting for this blog. my english is horribly rusty though, i haven't spoken it in a while, but i'll do my best... but now i thought i'd ask you guys if you're even interested in seeing me on video.
and if you are, what would you like me to talk about? aks me questions, suggest topics, anything. i'm awful at figuring out something to say.
or would you like a tour of my room, whatever might cross your mind.

eyebags for the win

i don't get much comments on this blog which i find a bit sad. i'd love you guys to comment me more! don't be so shy~

now that that's over with, onto other topics!
as i might've mentioned already, i'm going to see dir en grey this summer. what i haven't mentioned is that i got the VIP upgrade for my ticket which means i get earlier entrance to the club and a meet&greet with the band. how excited am i? oh i'm going crazy... yeah.

guess nothing else is new. spam me with comments and tell me your ideas for that video.
i'll go and do my hair now.



-rulla

np: ugly kid joe - cats in the cradle

"i sit here, my legs crossed, the ground is warm but the wind,
when it occasionally blows softly, is cold.

i sit here and my expensive leather jacket keeps me warm,
makes me look good.
when the wind doesn't mess with my hair and i don't shiver.

when i don't have to frown because the wind made me lose the page i was reading.

i look ok actually, thinking about it now, but it feels rather stupid since
i'm reading words telling me how everything is a waste of time and life.
everything we own. everything we are.
i've read this book a few times already.

ah, well. i smile to all my nonsense, i smile and breathe out smoke,
i smile and feel like my life is after all worth living.

i have too much.
i know too much.

but in the end, this is all worth it. it feels like it now.

i sit here, reading, drinking my morning coffee.
in all silence,
thinking about how i could describe the thoughts and feelings i have,
but when i get back home and start writing,
i've forgotten all those deep thoughts and, yeah,
i can never tell you how it actually feels.

to feel like i'm living something beautiful."

-rulla

np: dir en grey - red soil (unplugged)

think this blog needs yet another color theme change since my hair has been evolving like crazy.  how lame of me, matching my blog with my hair...

cut it short on the other side first...

and back to black after getting bored with caramel!

i think it looks quite nice. my history with black hair is long, i dye my hair black, start hating it, bleach it, back to black... after all this i think it's the best color for me. suits my face.

the sun's been shining bright and warm and i've been really happy! just chilling outdoors in the woods and walking around town listening to cheerful music (how out of character...) but that's just how summer affects me. i should take some photos of the places i usually go to just sit around doing nothing. they're all very visually pleasing.
though i'm really not a person who likes to be alone. i hate being alone to be honest.
but i try keeping myself entertained by drawing or writing when i don't have company.

oh, yeah, talking about writing, check out my other blog where i post one of my story projects (it's in finnish but i'm sure you don't mind.) JAD / DLL

i've spent a lot of time outdoors!

just realized i haven't even mentioned that dir en grey is coming to finland again and i have the tickets to see them. i'm super excited about that, the last time was 4 years ago... way too long if you ask me.
i kind of melt my brain yesterday checking out their recent setlists. they've been playing mazohyst of decadence. you should've seen me freak out when i noticed that. "SHIIIIIT THIS IS UNREAL!" i love that song. it's hypnotic. and sick. psychotic. i would've never expected them to play that oldie again... i hope they'll play it here too!

aaand i can't wait for their new single, different sense. i'm sure it'll be mind blowing. i have huge expectations on that one. after all it's dir en grey, they've never let me down.
..unlike girugamesh, imho their new songs are crap compared to the old ones.




i should write more often. there are so many things i could write about, including my new kids i haven't introduced to you yet... maybe a dollfie related post coming up sometime!

ofelie germanotta, arrived in december.

in the end i'd like to advertise a bit:
i, like everyone else, made a formspring some time ago. you can find it here:
ASK ME SOMETHING!
keep me entertained.

with this i say
g'bye!


-rulla